Love of Learning 6
"Fuck, you´re so gorgeous," Xander said. When William glanced at him, Xander was licking his lips as a cat might lick cream from its chops. "Damn, you´re just . . ." The boy shook his head, as if at a loss of what to add.
"Oh," William said in surprise. Xander, clad only in a t–shirt and boxers, was obviously hard, and without thinking William reached for him.
But instead Xander slid up his body and captured his mouth in a languid kiss. William gave himself over to it, murmuring as he tasted himself, and threaded his fingers through the sweat–dampened dark hair to pull Xander even closer. A moment passed before Xander pulled away just enough to pull his t–shirt off. He quickly returned, first brushing his lips against William´s with slow, teasing motion, then beginning to deepen the kiss. William shifted to accommodate him, adjusting so that Xander´s hard, heavy cock was cradled in the groove between his groin and thigh.
It was only when William suddenly shuddered in pleasure that he realized that Xander´s fingers were still inside him, moving slowly again and brushing against whatever sent a buzz up and down his spine. Then he was distracted again as Xander´s boxers began to slide down, until he reached down and helped tug them off.
"Oh, god . . . do you have anything?" Xander muttered.
William tried to train his focus on the question, but it was impossible. The air around him seemed thick and rich, warm with the heat from their bodies, scented with sex. "I . . . what?"
"Condoms," Xander said. William´s mouth fell open in surprise, and Xander kissed him again, more hungrily now, his prick rubbing against William´s thigh. "I just . . . god, I want to, please . . . I´ll make it so good for you."
William would have stilled completely but for the sudden stroking and turning inside of him that made him involuntarily spread his legs further apart and work his hips back.
"Fuck," Xander whispered. "Please." He pulled his fingers out in a slow motion that made William whimper aloud, and then sat back on his heels.
"Nightstand," William said faintly. He had a box only for Elizabeth´s visits, because she insisted that they use two methods of birth control in combination. She didn´t want a baby disrupting her career path, and based on some vague remarks she´d made, William wasn´t sure if she´d ever want children. He´d told himself that it would be all right if they married with that understanding because of his teaching –– he would always be surrounded by children.
At that he almost pushed away. Xander, who was still a child in many ways, was naked and in bed with him. William had violated any number of ethical expectations, done something that would probably damage Xander´s still–developing sense of self, acted entirely unconscionably even with the lesser transgressions between them, never mind what had just happened.
But when he tried to speak and lifted himself on his elbows, he saw Xander ripping off the wrapper and then rolling the condom on his hard cock.
"I can´t . . ." he mouthed, all the while his gaze was fixed on the thick hardness jutting out from dark curls.
"Sshh," Xander soothed him as he lay on top of him again. "Let me."
William shook his head slightly but when Xander kissed and then nibbled on his ear lobe he sighed with pleasure. It was with great effort that he spoke again. "We can´t do this," he said thickly. "It´s not –– we´ve already gone too far, and ––" He paused as he realized that he wasn´t objecting to the act itself, though he had never before done anything like it, never mind had any actual experiences with men. Part of him wondered why he wasn´t unnerved at the very arrangement of Xander being the one to –– but then he stopped and blurted out another point that he was horrified hadn´t crossed his mind before. "I´m engaged to be married, and I cannot ––"
"Don´t," Xander said simply. He was gentle as he pressed the backs of William´s thighs up, and William without thinking caught his legs behind his knees. "It´ll be weird for a minute or so, but you´ll love it, I swear."
Then Xander was pressing against him, actually entering him, and William´s breathing became ragged. It was very odd, and it hurt a little. But the look on Xander´s face, the obvious effort it was taking him not to come already, and his ecstatic expression as he inched further and further inside took all of William´s attention.
"You okay?" Xander bit out as he paused.
"I . . ." William felt his cheeks burning.
"Shhh, almost there," Xander said in a strained voice. He let his head fall forward for a second, and William unthinkingly brushed the hair out of his eyes. "You feel so good," Xander said hoarsely. "You´re so damn tight."
William´s lips parted, and he curled his back without knowing exactly why, canting his hips up.
Both of them gasped as Xander easily slid all the way inside of him.
"Xander," William said in a low voice.
"Just give me a sec." The boy´s shoulders trembled just a little, and William brought his hands up to clutch and rub at them. Then Xander raised his head and grinned. "Ready?"
"Yes," William breathed out.
The first few thrusts were awkward and uncomfortable, but when Xander swiveled his hips and moved forward, William pushed back and moaned at the rapidly changing sensations.
"Christ," Xander said softly. He changed the angle somehow while he was moving, and shifted William´s legs to his shoulders. "Fuck yes," he panted as a kind of rhythm fell into place. As he moved forward, he kissed William with an intensity and passion that William had never in his life experienced.
William tried to catch his breath, tried to hang on for all he was worth as Xander fucked into him harder and faster. When he dug his fingers into Xander´s skin, Xander gave a strangled cry, and before William could process this and apologize for it Xander´s hips snapped forward more and more quickly.
Xander grunted as he shifted his weight onto one hand and used the other to wrap around William´s hardening cock. "Come on, want to feel you come while I´m in you," Xander whispered.
William looked up at him in a daze, and then startled himself by arching his back, driving himself harder onto Xander´s cock before crying out and shooting into Xander´s hand.
"Yes, fuck, perfect, you´re perfect," Xander whispered, and his voice was reverent. One more thrust, two more, and then he went still as he came, his eyes shut, his expression blissful.
